This is the sticky I posted to my computer screen this morning, all positive affirmation like, just willing the gods to shower blessings of amazingness upon me. So, the day’s about done, did anything amazing happen, you may wonder? Well it depends on what you consider amazing.
Did someone knock on my door giving me millions of dollars? No. Did my soul mate appear at my doorstep with that longed for feeling as though my heart finally found its missing half, along with the bonus of a long steady embrace, and uh…a little afternoon delight? Nope (dang it! Lol). Is my dog mysteriously hip pain free? Sigh…sadly, no. My shoulders still hurt. My crushes still don’t crush back. I didn’t spontaneously book tickets to a sunny beach. It’s still cold and rainy. I didn’t get to sleep in. And I still have to swallow back the disappointment and sorrow to keep it from overwhelming me too often for my liking.
If you look at my life nothing has changed. Except one thing. The most important thing. I am changing my attitude. So, while those amazing things up there didn’t happen (shucks gosh darn almighty!), the following things did happen, and you know what? They are pretty amazing too.
I didn’t cave to the Voodoo donut temptation Mer brought by my house this morning (and this isn’t just any donut. It’s the Old Dirty Bastard (yes that is its official name) - a raised glazed donut topped with chocolate frosting, peanut butter and Oreos.) I packed up ALL the cookies for her to take with her (I did save two for the dog…he thinks they are better than sliced bread.) I made a decision about my future that makes me very, very happy (like welcoming home an old friend.) I followed the JE diet plan to a T. I lifted hard and heavy and increased my bench. I didn’t skip my post workout meal. And, most important of all I didn’t let the darkness outside weigh so heavy on my soul inside.
And if I should falter (because the night isn’t over yet)? Then I’ll just fake it til I find it.
Here’s to looking for amazing. How about you, anything amazing happen?
Bench press WU 45# x 15, 65# x 15 WO 80# x 6, 90# x 6 (then I got a spotter) 95# x 6, 95# x 6 (Increased these by 5# since Friday lol. Guess it helped not doing a full shoulder wo prior to benching.)Incline press 75# x 8, 6, 6, 5 (increased weight)
Flat bench flyes 22.5# x 10, 10, 8, 8
Lying ex bar tricep ext (weight added reported as I don't know the weight of the bar) 20# x 8, 10, 9, 8
DB triceps kick back 15# x 10, 10, 10, 10 (increased weight)
Triceps pressdown 60# x 10, 9. 9, 50# x 9, 9 (had to lower to 50# to maintain form)
Cable one arm triceps ext 20# x 7, 6 15# x 12, 10